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03.05.25—Should I Shave or Should I Not?🎵As you know I am ve..

03.05.25—Should I Shave or Should I Not?🎵

As you know I am very musical, so the title should be read in the tune of the song, “Should I Stay or Should I Go” by The Clash. 🎶🎤🎼

Very quick gratuitous views while debating whether or not I should shave… in this video and with the hazy lighting, it looks great! 😌

Pardon my mess—I’m in the process of organizing my life.

Drinking water makes me cold. 🥶

Thank you for watching and listening. 🦋

03.03.25—Garter Set Pt 2All over the place for part 2... Fin..

03.03.25—Garter Set Pt 2

All over the place for part 2... Finishing the look with white thigh highs, the white over-the-knee boots, dance skirt, and flannel shirt.

I am super excited to travel to Europe but at the same time a little nervous because it will be my first time to ever visit. Many logistics are involved.

Real estate school is really motivating me, as I feel like I had been missing an intellectual outlet for mental stimulation. I have group fitness for a physical outlet and this blog and social media for a creative outlet.

Speaking of my creative outlet, I've been really thinking about my blog and my image and what others may think and etc—due to my current breakup. And I've decided to own up to it. Not to necessarily announce it to the world, but to stop being ashamed of it. It is what it is, and it will always be there. Even if I stopped posting, it would always still be there. I respect anyone's decision to feel a certain way about my image—and also respect anyone's need to protect their own image. However, I honor my need to have a partner that accepts all of me. And as we know that time is not linear—so what I do now will forever be whether or not it is at the moment... long story... (I get keyboard happy when I post from the laptop instead of the iphone). It is what it is, and I am who I am. It's important to me to feel the effort of being courted. It doesn't have to happen often, but I love being claimed by my man, and it doesn't have to be on social media.

I am looking forward to pouring energy back into me, my life, my space, and my systems.

Local photographer's insatiable appetite had him running the exact game on me that he did 7-8 years ago. Hilarities!

Thank you so much for watching and listening and maybe reading this book.

03.03.25—Scottsdale VS Garter Set Pt 1Post coffee real talk ..

03.03.25—Scottsdale VS Garter Set Pt 1

Post coffee real talk and outfit of the day—Hehe title of outfit names for tax purposes… The greatest eBay find was scoring the matching garter belt to the VS corset top I bought in Scottsdale 9 months ago. Priceless!! I’m not sure if my orange balls fur scarf is faux or real—but I love how it feels so yeah probably real. Please no judgement.

All about real estate school and my study methods—93% on my first section test. The tests may be timed—but there’s only enough time to settle a few doubts. You either know the material or you don’t. It would seem I do not know the legal definition of land—like in my soul—I need to integrate this.

I’m feeling so much lighter in energy due to being single—not his fault at all. Again—detachment is such a beautiful thing. Energy exchange is real.

Thank you for watching and listening.

02.05.25—Extra ViewsRandom quickie 🦋

02.05.25—Extra Views

Random quickie 🦋

01.23.25—New Leopard Boots Extra Views🖤🐆✨

01.23.25—New Leopard Boots Extra Views

🖤🐆✨

10.15.24—Black Lingerie Forgotten Extra ViewsAlso not necess..

10.15.24—Black Lingerie Forgotten Extra Views

Also not necessarily forgotten—just a little graphic—like wow—but today I see it with different eyes as it looks like an orchid. So pretty. 🌸

02.28.25—Getting Ready for Seester TimeGratuitous views, whi..

02.28.25—Getting Ready for Seester Time

Gratuitous views, while getting ready to go hang out with my sister. I have been studying and working hard on real estate school!

I know that I didn’t post this video on the original blog on Patreon. I realize that I need to get my life in order—and I am happy to announce that I am so single and plan to remain single so that I may focus on my work, my creativity, and my studies!
I do expect my productivity to improve overall. Especially now that I have something to look forward to that is mentally stimulating. I think I’ve been missing that from my life—some form of study. It’s really not about the relationship at all. I just wasn’t resonating with it anymore. And that’s OK we hold space for all of it. ✨

Thank you for watching and listening!

02.25.25—Detachment Is a Beautiful Thing Still talking about..

02.25.25—Detachment Is a Beautiful Thing

Still talking about the same ting mon. And feeling a little musical—my vocal cords are still recovering from dance mom duty two weekends in a row. I’m usually not that good but also not this bad! It’s also too late baby to take the singing back now…

The universe will line us up with what we need when we need it. That was literally not the last coke in the desert. It’s ok to move on—and I’m thankful for the catalysts that have helped me see that. Unfortunately, sometimes love is not enough to make a relationship work, and doesn’t make either person bad.

Tension migraine days… I’m feeling pretty sexy lately. Like detachment is sexy hot. 👯‍♀️🔥

Thank you for watching and listening. ✨

02.23.25—Quick Morning ViewsQuick hazy abstract views before..

02.23.25—Quick Morning Views

Quick hazy abstract views before dance mom duty again. I’m pretty sure that was a feather from my pillows on my butt—we can only hope! I’m always finding feathers in my hair and clothes.

Thank you for watching.

02.19.25—VS Floral Lingerie Set from eBayCrunchy views. New ..

02.19.25—VS Floral Lingerie Set from eBay

Crunchy views. New Timberlands for the year—we shall see how comfortable they are to hike in!

Real talk about my Disney day experience and more on the dance mom nightmare.

I wasn’t feeling any of the shoes with the lingerie and only wanted to be cozy. Due to the extremely freezing 5°F weather outside, it was also a little cold inside the house. And also because of this, you can also hear—and see—the drippity drip drip of the faucets.

I definitely was not feeling the shoes and the sweater, so I tried on a dress I’ve been putting off for a while…. And I am not keeping it!

Thank you for watching and listening. 🧡🦋✨

02.15.25—Competition Woes…for lack of a better name— views w..

02.15.25—Competition Woes

…for lack of a better name— views while I change into my competition dance mom duty outfit. Group travel can be so humbling. My roommate was not very nice.

I had a one time chance encounter with an amazing individual at the airport… 😍🥹…But he doesn’t have social media… And I don’t know how I really feel about that… There’s definitely pros and cons to this.

Thank you for watching and listening.

02.08.25—Black VS Lingerie SetTrying on a full black lingeri..

02.08.25—Black VS Lingerie Set

Trying on a full black lingerie set from Victoria’s Secret—thigh garters, stockings, bodysuit, and heels.

Thanks for watching. ✨

02.07.25—Light Blue Lingerie SetGuuuuyyys—another cute thing..

02.07.25—Light Blue Lingerie Set

Guuuuyyys—another cute thing from my favorite store. There is definitely a fast-fashion component to Target with the way they've been popping out styles, colors, and variations so quickly.

Mental health talk—I (we) don't have to hold on to any labels, but it is good to know the kind of energy we are usually working with to make the best out of it.

Three big trips planned for the year, and I am too excited—Spain, BM, and Italy. I have never been to Europe and can't wait! My favorite part of traveling is exploring and taking pictures. ✨

Thank you for watching and listening.

02.06.25—Just Another Manic SomedayManic days reality check-..

02.06.25—Just Another Manic Someday

Manic days reality check--acknowledging things I am ashamed about helps me move away from it, as sometimes shame can cause things to grow negatively. Anyway, I felt super cute about my body in this pink and green outfit combination and wanted to show it off. My phone screen was a little smudged, providing the perfect softening filter.

Maneater days talk--in the past, I masked all my feelings and broke all relationships before they could break me. It's a pattern that I have mostly broken free from but still haunts me from time to time. It's so much easier to run away...

New pink bra top from Target--because I get these things to look cute for us--and I am obsessed with their essentials lately. I cannot step foot in that store again for at least two months now!

Thank you for watching and so much for listening.

02.05.25—Blue Flamenco Skirt Cloudy day vibes—thanks for bei..

02.05.25—Blue Flamenco Skirt

Cloudy day vibes—thanks for being my friends—my outlet—I really appreciate these talks and how they help me organize my thoughts and process my feelings.

Planning for Burning Man has officially begun again—and I am pretty sure it will be a solo trip. 😅

Light blue silk corset (which you've seen many times now) to cinch the waist in order to fit into a skirt one and a half sizes too small. Look--I am not proud of how I have zero shame and still continued to squeeze myself into this skirt. Let this be the before video--it may be a Frankenstein, but this will be my first official mending/sewing project. You can expect to see more about this skirt in the future! 💃

Thank you for watching and listening.

02.01.25—Bronze Corset and White BootsAs you know, I have be..

02.01.25—Bronze Corset and White Boots

As you know, I have been recently extra obsessed with over-the-knee boots and thought these would be a perfect addition the collection. White over-the-knee heeled Steve Madden boots with my bronze VS silk corset and white dance skirt.

Thank you for watching and listening.

01.14.25—Extra Plus Rare ViewsWhen I’m in the mood… 🫠🫠🫠Extra..

01.14.25—Extra Plus Rare Views

When I’m in the mood… 🫠🫠🫠

Extra views are just that—extra—I don’t like to fake anything and really have to be in the mood for sharing such an expression of self-love and etc…
🤭🙏🧡🦋✨

01.13.25—Extra ViewsGratuitous views before my shower 🩵

01.13.25—Extra Views

Gratuitous views before my shower 🩵

01.07.25—70s Inspired Outfit Extra Views🦋🧡✨

01.07.25—70s Inspired Outfit Extra Views

🦋🧡✨

01.30.25—Sparkly Boots and Black DressPost-shower on a no-ma..

01.30.25—Sparkly Boots and Black Dress

Post-shower on a no-makeup day trying on my new sparkly sequined and embroidered velvet over-the-knee boots from eBay with a lingerie dress and purse I found at Target.

Random 🎯

—The cat has been super affectionate ever since we nursed him back to health.

—I’m practically 70% hippie.

—Detachment is a beautiful thing.

—Thoughts on religion and different paths to the same goal.

Thank you for watching and listening. 🖤✨

01.28.25—Pink Shirt—Before WorkQuick views before work becau..

01.28.25—Pink Shirt—Before Work

Quick views before work because I felt cute in this pink shirt. I’m feeling sad and missing my ex a bit, but I think that is a normal part of life. I will hold space for myself while I transition out of this phase. I don’t need to justify it, and it shall hopefully soon pass. On the bright side, I have more energy to do things for myself. 💖👯‍♀️✨

Thank you for watching and listening.

01.24.25—Vintage Year of the Snake BootsI didn’t know when I..

01.24.25—Vintage Year of the Snake Boots

I didn’t know when I bought these secondhand boots from eBay that on January 29 start Chinese new year of the wood snake. I’m so excited for this rare find!! Red sheer body suit to match—and lots of talking!

YT partnership was reinstated after appeal! 🤸‍♀️

And relationship real talk—compromises that feel like too much—losing the connection—non-negotiables—what I’m really looking for in a partner. 🥹🧡💖

Thank you for watching and listening.

01.23.25—New Leopard Print Boots & Tan SweaterNew everything..

01.23.25—New Leopard Print Boots & Tan Sweater

New everything! 😍 Black lace bodysuit from wishlist—thank you for the gift—with new secondhand leopard print over-the-knee Jessica Simpson boots and tan Vince Camuto knitted belted sweater—both from eBay.

Dance competition season has officially begun—pardon the cluttered dining room table please. And I was demonetized from YT. At this point, it’s a blessing in disguise, as I can stop worrying about what kind of videos will make me a couple of dollars and instead just post whatever I want!

I love Bad Bunny’s new album—it gives me such great pride as a Puerto Rican! 🇵🇷✨

Thank you for watching and listening.

01.21.25—Peach One PieceChanging into a peach one piece ling..

01.21.25—Peach One Piece

Changing into a peach one piece lingerie post fitness class. 🍑🧡

Thank you for watching.

01.17.25—Electric Blue Micro Mini Skirt—OOTDSecondhand elect..

01.17.25—Electric Blue Micro Mini Skirt—OOTD

Secondhand electric blue foil micro mini skirt from NastyGal via eBay, black gold sparkled long sleeved sheer shirt from Amazon, and my recently repaired stiletto combat Doc Martens. 🖤

… a variety of gold belts… I love this outfit! 🦚

Cleaning and rearranging house again—please don’t mind the production in the background.

Thank you for watching and listening and for being here. 💫

01.17.25—Real Talk for Real1) The Cat Situation •the audacit..

01.17.25—Real Talk for Real

1) The Cat Situation

•the audacity of this individual…

• pets are lifetime commitment.

• Crunchy hippie status with no fragrance situation in this household calls for a limited and manageable number of pets.

2) Detachment is a beautiful thing, and it is time to get back to myself and my goals.

• The food truck is not it. I have worked on visualizing myself here and can’t. I know passion isn’t everything in life when you have to make money. However I’m not even sure that I can make money from this, so passion would definitely be important here.

• Catering could be fun, but not from home due to pets that live here.

• A restaurant is what I really want! I should hire someone to help me with the business plan and start looking at rent for small location nearby.

Thank you for watching and listening. 😘✨

01.14.25—Sleepy Views—Pink SkirtReal views, my friends. This..

01.14.25—Sleepy Views—Pink Skirt

Real views, my friends. This is not the best lighting, but the ring light towards the end makes a huge difference!

Sleepy again from snow days, tension migraines, and being out of shape. This week I’m going to take it easy working my way back into physical fitness. That’s why I’m still a little fluffy here, but remember, we’re embracing all of the stages! 😉

I still have so much to learn from my reaction to my BF’s romance with this special person. More to come on this later, but I’m obviously still working and reflecting on all of that at this point.✨

My walls were recently painted, and I noticed a huge, concerning crack on my ceiling!

My last time wearing this pink skirt because I’m not really resonating with it anymore… Probably because I’m feeling fluffy, but I’m letting it go to make space for new things in my life. 💕

Thank you so much for watching and listening

01.13.25—Heels with Green CoatQuick views. The coat does loo..

01.13.25—Heels with Green Coat

Quick views.

The coat does look better with the heels. I felt very elegant.

Thank you for watching and listening.💖🍓✨

01.13.25—Green Vintage Wool CoatThe pink and green look so c..

01.13.25—Green Vintage Wool Coat

The pink and green look so cute together! Outfit consists of pink silk corset set from VS (bc you know I got most of the colors available), the plum colored dancewear skirt again, and a light green vintage wool coat I thrifted many years ago. Honestly—it was a steal—less than 9$$$! I couldn’t decide on the shoes and tried different ones, but I ended up with the berry boots as originally envisioned. Side note—I love boots—especially for the winter!

Thank you for watching and listening.🍓♥️💖

01.08.25—Foam Rolling—Pearl ThongPost lunch, extra sleepy, t..

01.08.25—Foam Rolling—Pearl Thong

Post lunch, extra sleepy, tired, and ready to stretch—changing into black crop turtleneck and tan pearl thong to foam roll—with lots of talking per usual…🫠

Thank you for watching and listening.💖