I really want to go to Amsterdam and try some ayahuasca

I really want to go to Amsterdam and try some ayahuasca
2023-02-07 23:01:55 +0000 UTC View PostI really want to go to Amsterdam and try some ayahuasca
2023-02-07 23:01:55 +0000 UTC View Postafter much thought, I have decided if I had to pick one thing to eat for the rest of my life, it would have to be braised pork belly with a hard-boiled egg and rice π₯
2023-02-05 23:01:50 +0000 UTC View Postokay, I might be wildin' a little because I just bought another plane ticket to Thailand for next month. I like to think of it as remote working in the sunshine βοΈ I might go to Bali to visit a friend while I'm at it tho. hahaha
I just love Asia so much. maybe I should move there again.
sometimes when I'm out and about, usually around 2 a.m., all I think about is being in my bed with Fred π±.
in the past few outings, I have announced to my friends that I'm going home to pet Fred and then peace out. I used to be always the last one to go home. is this what growing up feels like?
I've picked a very emotional anime for my gym sessions (to your eternity) and I don't know if you've ever teared up when you're at 80% of your max heart rate, but it's very uncomfortable. I felt like I was being deprived of air hahaha
2023-01-29 23:05:35 +0000 UTC View Postoukay, I think I'm finally getting the hang of indoor lighting π€©
2023-01-27 23:07:17 +0000 UTC View PostI had a dream in chinese last night, where I was trying so hard to think of how to say a word, and then someone else in my dream chimed in to fill in the word I was trying to say.
it makes me wonder how can I unlock all the things buried in my subconscious
for my breast augmentation, I had two consultations with different surgoens to compare who was better.
they both asked me if I am asian, and I told them that my mom was from taiwan. the first surgeon goes "oh you're half Thai!" the second surgeon asked me about my opinion on the relationship between Taiwan and china. guess which one I picked π
happy lunar new year!π§§ π°ππ±π§§
2023-01-22 21:49:51 +0000 UTC View Postso, I recently learned that Lithuania is a neo-pagan country, and now I've added it to places I must visit. maybe next solstice or equinox π€©
2023-01-12 23:01:52 +0000 UTC View Postokay, so as you may know, I have a phobia of needles and vital fluid π©Έ.
the other day, I accidentally cut myself, and even after haemorrhaging, I didn't get nauseous and light-headed right away. It took 3-4 minutes! usually, I want to pass out instantly. this isn't a phobia I've been working on, but it's seemingly getting better. I wonder why π§
p.s. OF won't let me say the "b-word," hence the weird wording π€£
a random person, with a pet cat as their avatar, from my league followed me on duolingo. since no one follows me except for friends, I was curious and I clicked on their profile. All the people they followed were random accounts with pets as their avatars and they followed me because I had Fred as my display pic and I thought it was so cute, I followed them back π
2023-01-08 23:01:29 +0000 UTC View PostI was telling a friend of mine about all the interesting people I met in Thailand, and she gave me the idea to write about each interesting character I encounter. Maybe preparing some standard questions to pepper into the conversations with each person I find particularly interesting so that the pieces I write about them have a connecting theme.
I think it would be a really neat writing project for 2023 because everywhere I go, I always encounter people with such unique backgrounds that have shaped them into such interesting people.
okay so strange development with my Taiwanese neighbour.
she messaged me and asked me if I had a package for her. I did have a package, but the label had another name than the one she told me the first time we met, albeit it was also a Chinese name and tbh I never looked at her packages when I gave them to her before, so I thought it could be just her legal/chinese name.
So I took a picture of it and sent it to her, and she confirmed it was hers. But then, a few days later, another person came by and said it was hers. I asked her if her name was the one on the label, and she said yes. So I told her someone else claimed it as theirs.
After some thought, I realised that the recipient put their phone number with their address and so I compared it to my Taiwanese neighbours phone number and they didn't match up π
I messaged my Taiwanese neighbour and asked if there was a possibility that there was a mix up, and she just replied by asking me to show the picture of the package to the other neighbour. So she didn't really confirm or deny anything π
So I texted screenshots of the Taiwanese neighbour and mine's conversation to the number on the recipient's label, and tried to explain what happened and to talk to the Taiwanese neighbour to figure it out. It's been a few days and she hasn't replied. I don't know what else I should doooo π₯²
Since I am always home, the postman always rings my doorbell to leave packages for my neighbour's even if he doesn't have any for meee. I'm starting to feel like this is too much responsibility for me lol
I sweeear I was born to live in warm, humid climates. My skin and hair just look better in these climates π₯²
My skin was sooo clear in Thailand and as I got back to Germany, I immediatelygot pimples π
Happy New Year!! π₯³
No New Year's resolution for me, but I'm going to try and get back into my activities that I started a few months ago that I've been slacking on lately.
That means getting back into learning German and Spanish, journaling, reading, and finishing this dang google data analytics course. Once I get these things down, then maybe I'll consider some new goals π
so I somehow ended up in a Russian rapper's music video during my visit in Thailand, so if I look cool, I might post it when it's released hehehe
2022-12-29 13:56:22 +0000 UTC View Postfinally back home in Germany!
thailand was great. I low-key want to live there π₯Ί
ah I always have a bad habit of falling in love with places I visit
I decided to spend Christmas in Thailand! I swear the universe loves me. I was already contemplating extending my stay in Thailand, but changing flights were expensive. So luckily for meeee my flight to Germany got canceled due to weather conditions and I was able to request a new flight for a week later than expected for freeee! π₯³
2022-12-22 06:53:54 +0000 UTC View PostHave you ever seen that episode of Dr Who where these aliens make you instantly forget that you saw them when you take your eyes off them, but then you remember when you look at them again?
I swear I get this feeling at least 5 times a day, when I see something that I should do. This is why I make so many lists! Lists are my best friends.
I hate that winter makes me sleep so much. But did I tell you, that I had my first dream in German a few weeks ago? They say that's a significant milestone for learning a new language! :D
2022-12-03 16:04:04 +0000 UTC View PostI'm a be honest. I don't like going to the gym. The short-term motivation I use to get me out of the apartment and into the gym is that I only allow myself to watch anime in the gym.
So if I want to know what happens next on Demon Slayer or Chainsaw Man, I have to get my butt on that stair stepper, and it works really, really well.
Umm, so I think I've discovered the secret to writing the best porn scripts. Don't masturbate before or during writing them, or maybe even the night before π€£
Harness that pent-up sexual energy!
So after my graduation ceremony last week, I went out for karaoke with my classmates. And this guy, who looked like the German rapper, Kollegah, got on stage and sang George Michael's Careless Whisper, and something about that hyper-masculine energy mixed with the romantic-feminine energy of that song made him super attractive to me. But I didn't want to initiate anything, because I'm avoiding dating at the moment.
But as luck would have it, of course, the first time I have ever found a guy attractive in the wild, he approached me first. So inebriated Kollegah George Michael asked me if I was single, and then we danced a bit. As we danced, he told me he was a school teacher, which made him even more attractive! But then it all went downhill pretty fast when he introduced me to his friend.
I asked if he was a teacher too, and he said almost, but then he took the red pill and decided not to become a teacher. His friend was going on about red pills and blue pills and asked me which one I took, and tbh this just confused me. Then his friend went on to talk about how he wanted to move to Chechnya and have ten children because he's such a traditional guy. I still didn't think much of it, because I actually have a friend staying with me from out of town this weekend for a techno event, and he's from Chechnya! My friend is a beautiful human being, and he loves Chechnya too, but he hates its politics. So I was like, yeah, sure, loving Chechnya isn't a red flag. But then he went on about Andrew Tate, and I was like, oh no π
So I turned to Kollegah George Michael, and I asked him if he also liked Andrew Tate, and he said that he liked him every now and then π. After Kollegah George Michael said that, I told him that I'm sorry, but I'm not interested anymore, and for some reason, this made his friend so irate. He got into my earshot and kept telling Kollegah George Michael "fuck her!!" "forget her!!" "she's not worth shit" over and over and over again. He was such an angry little man! I thought I was quite polite about it too.
Anywho, apparently, after I left, my friend overheard the security guards asking Kollegah George Michael, if he got my nudes and to show them to him π
Fortunately, they will never have the pleasure of seeing my nudes. They don't deserve it!
So let's just say, bullet dodged!
And of course, I told my Chechen friend all about this, and he said, he wasn't sure if this guy would actually like Chechnya because his behaviour sounds like it would get him killed there, ah, irony π
My mom finally left, so things are back to normal!
I tried to give my mom a really lovely vacation since she hadn't had one for so long. To be honest, I'm not even sure if you can count the handful of vacations that she took me on when I was younger, as proper vacations that she actually enjoyed.
A few times she took me to the Las Vegas strip to walk around in July lol. Another time, she took me to Sea World, but I was definitely the oldest person there with my mom π
On the way to SeaWorld, I remember driving by the ocean, and at this point, I'd never been to the ocean, so I begged her if we could stop by the beach, and she promptly said no, hahaha. My mom doesn't really know how to vacation.
So I tried my best to give her a good experience. My mom never took us to restaurants when I was younger, except on VERY rare occasions we went to McDonald's or Panda Express, so when she was here, I took her to a restaurant nearly every day :D.
My mom tried French, German, and Italian food for the first time (German was her favorite π!) She also had her first brunch ever! I also accidentally got her inebriated off of one glass of mulled wine, which, surprise, was also her first time being inebriated hahaha. I also learned that she has only tried coffee once in her life, and it was instant powdered coffee and it ended up giving her the jittersπ₯². I couldn't convince her to drink any coffee during this visit though. Maybe next time I see her!
What I thought was absolutely hilarious, was at one point she asked me why my boobs were small. She's always been critical of my looks (I think this is a very Asian thing,) so I tried to look my best every day, but one day, I wore a tighter shirt, and she instantly knew right where to hit me in the feels. Why are Asian parents so good at this? π₯²
All in all, it felt really good to be able to be the one to take care of mom, treat her, and show her new life experiences. It gives me so much joy watching people eat delicious, new food for the first time, and we got to do that a lot!
hmmm, I'm trying to decide whether or not to keep using creatine. I only stretch and do cardio, and moderately easy cardio at that, when I go to the gym. I know you can't tell, but I can tell that I have water retention and I don't like it. haha.
creatine does have a lot of benefits, but do I *really* need them? π§
wooo, wouldn't you believe it?
my graduation is today!
now what do I do with life?
happy thanksgiving!
I'm thankful for the opportunities life has afforded me such as the privilege to travel the world, access to higher education, the ability to live comfortably, my health, and good eating.
I'm thankful to be surrounded by such great people, and to interact with so many fascinating human beings in the physical and virtual world! and last but not least, I'm thankful for the most handsomest little cat in the whole wide world, Fred. Such a good boy. I would literally give up all my possessions for him, even though he accidentally scratched my face while I slept as he raced to his automatic food dispenser to beat the other cat, that I'm babysitting, to it π₯Ή
I'm pretty excited to go to Thailand! I'm going to visit a good friend who has been backpacking the world for the past year. She's having the time of her life, but I've missed her company, terribly. Maybe I'll take some pics with her for you guys π
She seems open to it, but I know she won't do any nudes, hahaha. So don't get too excited.
She's one of the most brilliant scientists I've ever met and she's so beautiful! it's almost unfair, how can someone be so hot and smart? how! I'm so excited to see her π€©
My mom is flying in to visit me today for my graduation this week! I haven't seen her in over 5 years, but I KNOW, the first thing she's going to do is sneer at my nose piercing. *but hey!* at least half my body isn't covered in tattoos, like a sibling of mine. π
I can't remember the last time she took a vacation to relax, enjoy, and explore. Maybe like 18 years ago when she took me to Las Vegas? hahaha
I'm so excited. I hope I can make this a great vacation for her, she deserves it. We got a lot of Christmas markets on our itinerary! It will be my mission to get her to try ONE glΓΌhwein because I have never in my life seen her drink alcohol π