i was asked to point out some of the scars on my face (i do not take offense when asked about these things, no worries 🩷) and tbh, the one above my left eye is most noticable, the other ones aren't as noticeable (i don't think they are noticable at least)
but these are the marks, the rest are on my scalp, hidden by my hair
i forgot my mashed potatoes ;+;
2024-08-07 20:49:01 +0000 UTC View Poststop offering me to move in with you guys as well. im not going to live with any of you.
2024-08-07 15:52:07 +0000 UTC View Postno offense but with everything ive been through, i absolutely do not need to be a 100% sweetheart all the time. especially to people who are aggressive with me bc the content i was f0rced to make is gone. i also will not share my trauma with any of you on a deeper level because it's not your business. simple as that. you all know plenty about me. you don't need details of what i went through, that's sick to even ask for.
2024-08-07 15:35:45 +0000 UTC View Postpolice have been informed of everything and are ready to arrest on the spot if he comes near me or crosses state lines to look for me.
2024-08-06 05:05:09 +0000 UTC View Postim thrilled that my current hyper fixation meal is chicken/beef beans, mashed potatoes, and green beans c:
2024-08-06 01:46:28 +0000 UTC View Posti was taught how to do my job today by a very nice man who has trained everyone c:
i worked for 5 hours today, which is a nice start. i mostly rinsed, hand washed, and sorted dishes into a big bin to go into a final wash machine for most of today. they're gonna teach me how to close tomorrow, im excited ☺️
oh yeah and for the 20 minutes i was supposed to be clocked in, apparently i wasn't. so i literally asked the manager: "so ive been here for 20 minutes, unpaid training, and being yelled at for no reason?"
he sighed and was like, "yeah, essentially, im sorry."
so i just got booted off of my job after only being there for 20 minutes. because the dishwasher guy got frustrated that i was doing my job??? he didn't teach me like he was supposed to, the other dishwasher guys tried helping me learn before they had to leave work and i easily figured out the rest by watching them. the other dishwasher guys leave bc they're off the clock now. so i pick up the rest of dishes and start cleaning, he turns off the dishwasher machine and proceeds to tell me im not working fast enough and that he doesn't want me working there. and suddenly the manager is asking me to come back another day because apparently ive ruined all productivity.
are you serious???
my family really truly made sure i was set up for failure in every way possible. and now everything is my responsibility?? i don't even know what im doing.
2024-08-03 20:18:27 +0000 UTC View Posti got cheapo cooking supplies at the store today cause the hotel doesn't actually supply them anymore bc people kept stealing them :^) way to ruin it for everyone else thieves.
but anyways, this guy has been yelling at me every time to get into his car cause he'll pay me, for the past few days. today he stalked me for a mile, i walk on the side of a hwy mind you, he pulled into a restaurant in front of me, yelled at me to get into his car and again; "what's the problem?!? im gonna pay you!" and i ran while screaming and he pulled out and drove to another gas station and started taking pictures of me. so i filmed him immediately, got his description, license plate number, and omw back to my place, HES FOLLOWING ME AGAIN. yet again, telling me he'll pay me to get in his truck. so i hide in another gas station and call 911 (whilst having to make sure the guys inside the gas station don't make an example of this guy)
the creep admitted to the cop that he followed me and everything but; "i thought she was someone else." so they can't do anything unless he does this again because he admitted to the stalking, but claims he assumed i was someone else. so hopefully he truly thought i was someone else but i don't buy it. i need pepper spray or something but i can afford it.
feeling a bit better health wise 🥺🩷 still feel sick but im alive. i need a can opener :/ maybe a pot or two to cook with too
2024-08-02 21:00:36 +0000 UTC View Postmay i have 40 dollars to RinJilsig? 🥺 the 💚green💚 schmoney app
2024-08-01 22:19:46 +0000 UTC View Postaaannnndddd police are here and the dude is trying to argue with them in the hallway. how did you get back inside dude? 😭😭😭 just leave lmfao
2024-08-01 06:23:00 +0000 UTC View Postso this guy found a keycard ig and tried breaking into my room, three times, obviously didnt work because i have both of my cards. then tried the door across from me, then another door next to that one and i said, "BRO WHAT IS YOU DOING?" hella loud and he bolted down the hallway and out the front door 🙄 i called the front desk, let them know what he did, and she let me know she watched him basically run out the door.
2024-08-01 06:01:13 +0000 UTC View Posti am now out of the hospital, i had multiple seizures. Keppra is kicking in. i am really really hungry 😭😭😭 spghettios
2024-08-01 03:13:39 +0000 UTC View Post
tired of the hospital visits but this hospital and staff are very sweet 🥹 so they make it easier when i have to come here for seizures.
i was making my grocery run to dollar tree :/ had to run right into the chik fil a and the staff gave me a water cup, and as im trying to cool off. the manger guy is like, "uh ... do you need an ambulance ma'am?"
i deadass my loopy self: "be honest, do i look like i need one?"
he: *cringes* "yeah.. kinda."
me: "please call, thank you."
then i start immediately dry heaving in the trash can next to me and run to the bathroom so i can puke :,)
also pretty sure i dropped in the ambulance because i barely remember how i got here. like i usually pay attention to the road and what not and pfft hell if i know. and they're asking me my name and birthday a lot so maybe im having multiple. it kinda feels that way but whatev
in the hospital again for seizures and possibly heat stroke, more worried about seizure stuff... sorry for puking in your bathroom chik fil a, my b
2024-07-31 22:44:55 +0000 UTC View PostNO I CANT HIDE MY SOUTHERN ACCENT ANYMORE HOW DARE ANY OF YOU MAKE FUN 😂😂😂🩷🩷🩷 LMFAOO
2024-07-31 00:56:33 +0000 UTC View PostI GOT THE FCKING JOB
IMMA DISHWASHER MAKING 12 AN HOUR NOW! AAAAHHHHHHHH 🩷🩷🩷🪽
i basically begged the manager just now for a job and to not dismiss me because i put down disabled.
i was 🔪 in the head as a ch1ld, multiple times it's what causes my seizures. and thankfully i have an interview at 3. idc if i seem silly for begging for a job like that i need it.
i hate to ask but i need 35 more dollars for my hotel for next week, i have 417 already and i have enough canned food but idk how im gonna do the extra 35
2024-07-30 17:48:00 +0000 UTC View Postso i was suggested to put a list of how much everything costs for me now:
weekly rent: 300-400 depending on the week
weekly food: 10-20, or ill go to a food bank around here and see what they have 😊
monthly medicine: (with goodRx) 7-20, (without goodRx) 70-400
monthly phone bill: 49
and that's all i can think about honestly. i don't have a car or have any car insurance so no payment for those. i don't have health insurance either, hopefully i can get on some from the state, or maybe my job might provide some. but yeah, other than that i can't really think of much. but those are my bills now, thankfully they aren't too expensive.
my content will no longer be what it used to be. if you've been following me for a while, you knew this was coming. this isn't some, "psych i gotcha!" thing, i don't want to make this content and i think everyone knows by now. i never wanted to make this content and i appreciate every single one of you for understanding that and the fact that i will never be making it again.
ill go live at some point to discuss my health, right now im doing better since i left the moldy hotel room, i got a new refill from the hospital yesterday so now my meds aren't ruined/no risk of mold on the medicine. im not sure if mold could get to my medicine but the heat destroyed my keppra pills for sure so i needed new ones anyways 😅
small tip for Keppra medicine, if it feels grainy or starts instantly dissolving when you put it in your mouth, your meds have been ruined, usually temperature change is the culprit 😊 just make sure your medicine has the regular slippery coat to be able to swallow.
other than that, my content will be more focused on different things. im not sure entirely what to do yet, but i have a dishwashing job lined up for me now :) so i will definitely be more busy, but in a better way c:
im getting help. medical and intense therapy for my trauma.
2024-07-29 01:31:05 +0000 UTC View PostIM STATING PUBLICLY I WOULD NEVER GO BACK TO OKLAHOMA PER MY OWN FREE WILL. I HAVE NO PLAN TO MOVE TO OKLAHOMA ANY TIME SOON NOR WORK THERE.
ANGEL, LEAVE ME ALONE LIKE I ASKED YOU TO, MULTIPLE TIMES, MONTHS AGO WHEN I RAN AWAY FROM YOU IN MARCH.
MAKING NEW ACCOUNTS, SENDING ME MONEY AND TELLING ME YOU WANNA COME GET ME?
YOU THINK I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WERE PLANNING TO DO TO ME?!
STAY AWAY FROM ME.
YOURE NOT TAKING ME TO OKLAHOMA SO YOU CAN TRAP ME IN ANOTHER HOTEL ROOM.
so my hotel did in fact get r0bb3d and sh0t up yesterday as some of you know already. i just walked in the hotel an hour before it started;
someone shouted; "EVERYBODY GET ON THE GROUND." suddenly there's pew pew going off, about f0ur r0unds, scr3aming, runn1ng, people runn1ng past my room and scr3aming. another 0ne, then complete silence.
i quietly hid under my bed when i heard the gunsh0ts and scr3ams because i was figured they were gonna break into the rooms next and hurt people if they got the staff. so i called 9.1.1 when my AC turned on so my voice would be muffled and dispatch informed me that there were deputies on scene already.
id be full of it if i said that didn't scare me at all, but not for what people might think, i know with my generation we're supposed to be unphased and not care about anything at all. but i was actually scared and angry. and my thought was, "wow, this is really how it ends. ive been t0rtured for 24 years. free for two years at most, is this all im really allowed to have?"
yes free, some of you know this because you've been here long enough, i was traff1cked my entire life, and i only just broke free from my handlers two years ago. at most; it has been two years of being free. and if any of you are wondering, yes, i was put on this website by one of them. a lot of you are aware of this fact and i always appreciate you for treating me like a human being instead of an object, because i didn't ask to be born and given to evil creatures.
but idk, im really questioning a lot right now that i never did before and i wasn't scared to d1e necessarily. i was scared because i really am alone. no one would even know what happened to me. i didn't have anyone to call to tell them i love them just in case.
im probably more alone than people actually understand. i don't even know how to explain it.
this is the mold btw if anyone was wondering 😅 i only noticed the bedside table the other night because my phone flashlight accidentally shined on it.
this explains why i have been puking profusely every single day, and can barely function.
btw this isn't because house keeping isn't cleaning enough btw, this is definitely a moisture issue that's probably deep in the carpets or maybe the wood itself.
this is my new outfit 🎀🖤🎀 i still wanna add more ribbons, lace, and other details but for no this is what it looks like ☺️♥️ i have also officially quit smoking cigarettes!!! 🍓🖤🍓
2024-06-28 00:52:58 +0000 UTC View Post
final results ❤️ i came from the first bite of one of the balls 🤤🤤🤤
2024-06-15 22:04:27 +0000 UTC View Post