I'll be editing today's stuffs in a bit. Just reading an article rn before I get started.
If anyone's interested in what I'm reading, here's the link:
https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2021/12/how-care-less-about-work/620902/
Maybe we can talk about it once we're done :)
Btw, I didn't search for this. It's one of those random articles I get when I open FireFox. They have some interesting reads and it's what I do when I log on my PC.
*Hehe where else can I make you kiss?*
I'll be sending out pussy close-ups plus a little clip of me finding the mistletoe and trying to get you to kiss me all over xD
If you like the extra stuffs I send to your inbox, feel free to send me a little tip with your response to the clip hehe.
*Oh look! A mistletoe! Now you HAVE to kiss me :)*
Lolz I got distracted taking some notes on a video I was watching. I had watched this YouTube channel called The Futur created by Chris Do some years back and ran into it again recently. I forgot why I stopped watching his videos but they're super helpful in understanding business and marketing and stuffs. Maybe I can implement what I've learned with my own work :)
Anyways, let's talk about this mistletoe set for today:
The mistletoe is real and preserved somehow. I say somehow because when I got it, it had these white cotton looking webs around it and wasn't sure if it was part of it or if it was spoiling lolz. I still don't know, but I made sure not to put it too closely against my skin just in case and mainly tried to grab it by the ribbon it came with.
I'm fine, so I guess it wasn't anything too bad lolz. Also, there weren't any reviews related to how mine looked so either I didn't dig too deep into the reviews or maybe that's just how some mistletoes look or maybe mine was an outlier lolz. Who the heck knows.
Thank you to everyone for the supportive comments and messages. It's definitely hard for me to pull back because I just like the process of creating. Everything else like editing and advertising, I wish someone else could do that for me lolz.
But yeah, I'll try to take it a bit easier, especially since I'll be adding classes on top of all this starting next month. Oof! Hopefully my little projects work out so I can stress less.
Anyways, I'm editing stuffs for today and I have a clip that I'll be sending in messages. I like the puss better in private lmao.
**So I'm at a loss.**
Lately, I've been overthinking and it's starting to affect my sleep again. Idk if it's stress or anxiety or something else. Maybe I just feel like I'm not doing enough or as much as I can. Idk.
But I do know that I've been getting less and less sleep, and it's starting to affect my sleep and in turn my mood. I'm quick to get agitated, I'm taking things the wrong way, I don't feel like talking to anyone, and only want to focus on things that don't require too much energy.
I also don't think it's burnout because I have my ideas for the month that I very much would like to create and am doing my best to. I just know that writing things out helps me think and eliminate some potential reasons.
Maybe it's because I'm juggling multiple things at once? Maybe I'm trying to split my focus on a bunch of different things that my mind races to try to complete at least one but then that one gets replaced by another? Maybe it's the mental workload that never seems to end? Yeah, I guess it's a combination of those on top of what I'm already having to do.
Honestly, this past year has been experiment after experiment in terms of my OF to see if I can just focus on that and maximize it somehow. The somehow hasn't been working out, which is part of the reason I'm trying to expand. But to do that, I need time, and because I don't have enough waking hours, I guess that's why my brain has been waking me up to continue building. A survival instinct for fear of the future. Ugh, why does fear work?
I really don't want to post less here. I'm very much enjoying the creative process of shooting and filming and editing and doing all the things, but it's a lot of things and I'm only one person. No wonder most people post less than me lolz. I guess it just took a lot of trial and error for me to get that.
I feel like I have a bunch of great content and the feedback from you guys sort of helps me confirm that, but it's not enough to only focus on creating; I need to do other things like advertising; I hate advertising.
Maybe I just need to find a sweet spot or rhyme to juggle all the things better so that I don't have to drop anything or lose my balance.
If I post less here, I hope you understand and I hope you don't feel like I'm cheating you out of a sub. Just know that I'm doing my best for me and for you, and I'm just in a rough place of having to explore better options and methods to keep doing this thing that I do enjoy doing.
Thanks for listening~
*P.S. Even the Bedtime Mode on my phone that I've been using for months has been telling me to go to sleep during my sleep schedule lolz. I'm done xD*
I'll probably be late to posting stuffs today. Yesterday, I was in doing BTS stuffs and had set aside time for content creation so I didn't have much chance to edit.
And this morning... well I've been slowly but surely fucking up my sleep schedule, sleeping less and less, and I'll post about that in a few minutes.
But I want to know how your Monday went! How'd it go?
## **Day OFF Tomorrow**
Please read.
Lolz sorry for bombarding everyone with all these posts today. Just wanted to gather some information as well as give updates to a couple things. I enjoy the feedback I get from you when it comes to my content, and I want to continue doing my very best to provide you with the best content I can create.
Tomorrow, I'll be AFK so I won't be posting or messaging here. But I'll be working on some stuffs behind the scenes. I am making good progress on my little side projects and am well on my way to completing one by the end of the month. Once, I have that set up, I'll be trying out the rest of the stuffs with my test subjects lolz.
If you haven't guessed it yet, or haven't attended/watched the streams, my projects so far are:
- Set up an alternative site for more services (video and voice calling)
- Set up another clip store site (it has a higher payout than MV)
- Set up a merch site (for both my photos and artwork)
Yup! I am looking to expand a little more in the industry and would like a couple of the sites to be more passive (clip and merch sites) so that I can focus on my more active ones (streaming and sub sites) with little stress.
Once I'm done setting these up, hopefully by the end of this month or next month, I'll make a post with all the links to stuffs for those interested.
Oh! And I am thinking of keeping OF to 1 yr of content max, so I might be retiring/deleting some posts starting in January that are at least 1 yr old. It's not a for sure thing, and depends highly on how peeps vote in the polls I posted today. And I'll still have them in my Vault here, they just won't be posted unless I repost them. We shall see how that goes though. This is for another stream/post to discuss more.
Oki, I'm talking too much lolz. I hope you guys have an awesome Monday and start to your week. I shall see you all on Tuesday~
- Mizu <3
**I'll be visiting family in January!**
***I'll be leaving on the 12th, and returning a week later on the 19th.***
If you've got an extra dollar laying around at any time, you can drop it here so that I can take some time off to spend with my family without financial worries for the week. I also want to be able to treat my family to dinner and get some presents for my nephews :)
*This is completely optional, but if you'd like to help out, I have some things in the link below you can tip for. Thank you so so much in advance <3*
https://onlyfans.com/216008188/amamizura
**Upcoming Stream Announcement**
***I'll be streaming next Saturday, December 18, at 1pm PT!***
***A minimum of $75 total must be contributed for me to get online by that weekend, but I believe that with this being posted 2 weeks in advance, we can get there :)***
Here's what you can tip for:
- Tip at least $5 to get the VOD
- Tip $25 to get a personal Thank You clip + above
- Tip $50 to also get some FYEO dirty talk or teasing clips + above
- Tip $125 to auto-choose the Stream Theme and help me choose the cumshow toy + above
*Whatever amount the tip, you can also redeem that amount for anything on the Stream Tip Menu*
Since our last poll ended up tying, and since our last stream I decided on Blacklight since that's what I saw winning before the tie, ***this upcoming stream theme will be Karaoke!!***
We'll be singing and dancing to some of my playlist and from requests! We can try choreos for the dancing or freestyle! And perhaps we can have a control show throughout!
Let's get this show started! xD
Eeeep! I recorded the thing!
I'll be sending it out around 5pm PT today! So make sure to have Renew ON by then to get the secret audio ;)
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Heyoo! I don't have any media to post for today but I do have a few questions I want to ask you guys as well as some updates and whatnot. So stay tuned for all that~
Before I forget!
Strim was pretty uneventful. I think with OF issues and getting closer to the holidays, things might be slow anyway, so I might try to stream elsewhere. But I'll still try to stream here anyway.
Thank you to the peeps that got me online and tried to complete the cumshow goal. I'll still give you stuffs for it <3
Here's today's VOD for anyone interested. I have a list of questions that I'll post as polls for you tomorrow.
Have a good night!
Woot woot! We're getting close to clearing the cumshow goal for today's stream!
I *might* be a bit late to it because I will be filming a little video for this upcoming Thursday. And it's also one of my nephews' birthday (he's turning 1) so I'll be video calling the family to say hi and sing happy birthday with them :)
I won't be too late though! Probably 30mins max~
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*The prettiest sight to see...*
Damn, I feel like I posted a lot more stuff today than in a while lolz. Had to make it worth the time and effort it took me to make this, and I'm pretty proud of how it turned out.
It's harder to paint on the face/body than on a canvas because of curves and stuff; if I only paint and it looks good in one angle, it'll look weird in a different angle lolz. I did better this time in keeping that in mind and trying to make sure it looks ok in all angles, which is why I showed it like this in a clip :)
Anyways, I did shower after cooking and eating and I did take a bunch of clips of me washing this body paint off (I don't have any of me creating it because I kept going back and forth between my small mirror at my desk and my big mirror on my wardrobe). If you would like the extra pics and clips, tip any amount under this post, and I shall send them your way <3
*Some close-ups here and there~*
I made sure to take a lot of pictures for this because although it's not the best-looking to me, I think it still came out pretty good. What do you think?
I didn't use the regular face/body paint because I felt like it would take longer for the layers to dry. So I used my tempera paint so I can do one thick layer. I don't much like to use it though since it cracks after applying, but it was necessary this time lolz. Or maybe I just need more practice with my actual face/body paint.
*It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!*
Oh man, when I was doing this, I did not realize how much time had passed lolz. I was watching TV while painting and I was super focused on it that I didn't track the time. I think this took almost 2 hours to paint and then shoot and film.
I was in a bit of a rush towards the end because I had to cook dinner right after lolz. My plan was to paint, shoot/film, take a quick shower, then cook. Mistakes were made because I did start kind of late. So I had to cook with the body paint still on me under my pajamas xD
Oooh I'm intrigued by the winning votes. I'll record a little something to be delivered this coming Sunday. I think peeps are still able to vote if you'd like to.
https://onlyfans.com/231744662/amamizura
Psssst! Friendly reminder that I'll be streaming this weekend!
Let's try to fill up this goal as much as possible so you can fill me up ;)
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Last set!
Songs danced to:
- "Walk Like an Egyptian" by The Bangles
- "You Spin Me Round" by Dead or Alive
I think next time I do this, I'll do Just Dance and a freestyle song :)
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Thank you guys for watching, and I hope you enjoyed the songs/dances!
Next week, we're working on arms! Let's do a nude workout again! Let's complete this goal by this Saturday at 1pm PT!
Have an awesome rest of your night :)
Here's the first set!
Songs danced to:
- "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun" by Cyndi Lauper
- "I Love Rock n Roll" by Joan Jett
Btw would anyone be interested in knowing my scores for each song?
And would anyone be interested in seeing what the actual Just Dance choreo is?
I'd have to use my webcam/OBS to show the game and me, but I can do try it! Or shall we test it out in a stream first?
