Added 2025-03-13 19:31:58 +0000 UTC
Everything ends sometime. (this is not a farewell last letter.) I've been trying to keep a foot in both worlds for a long time, but fortunately or unfortunately my psyche is too sensitive and I don't know how to force myself to do anything. I have already shared that I started studying documentary filmmaking and not so long ago I began to feel more and more consciously that everything I have done and how I have lived these 5 years is no longer possible. I tried to force myself, but it only increased my burnout from work. And for the last 2 months, every day is an act of self-sabotage. I have brought my financial situation to a critical level. But today I made a decision. I'll make a deal with myself. I will create deadlines within a few months (this coincides with the beginning of summer and the start of filming) I will work in order to finance the months of work so that I don't feel guilty for missing broadcasts or not actively managing the pages. Am I scared? Yes, but I like to be afraid. Do I have the option of not changing anything? No, it's getting unbearable. I've outgrown the stage where sex work was my size. I wasn't ready for this realization, now I'm sorry that I can't delete Miranda2_0 one day and do other projects. But I'm glad this day has come. This is not a farewell letter, this is a welcome letter. I hope to see you soon! #altgirl #teen #tattooed #goth #egirl #makeup #art #fyp #gfe #smoke
