Me in the bathroom 😛 I have not been feeling great about ho..
Added 2020-12-26 21:33:21 +0000 UTCMe in the bathroom 😛 I have not been feeling great about how I look lately. The most difficult aspects of doing this work for me are: 1. I cannot keep the acne/ingrown hairs at bay after getting waxed or shaving. I feel so insecure about it. It’s been this way my whole life and I haven’t unlocked the code to smooth skin lol Usually, I don’t remove any hair at all and just deal with it. 2. My body is displayed no matter how I feel about it. That’s heavy (pun!). I have put on some weight these past couple of months. It’s starting to show in my face which affects my self-esteem. So, I need to recalibrate a bit and be more mindful with myself in how I’m treating my body. And also stop eating holiday treats lol Checking in with ourselves and giving space to not only reel things in that are harming us but to let go of worries and return when you’re ready are important. I let go of my stricter PCOS diet while starting trauma therapy. I wanted comfort foods and to roll around like a little potato. And that’s OK. But I also have to be honest with myself! I have to be my own check and balance. You can’t ignore things that make you feel poorly, even if it’s the easiest thing or best thing for your mental health. Sometimes, you have to push yourself a bit where you can. But! You can’t keep pressing forward into “getting better” if you lack the tools or drive. You’ll fail and fall back into bad habits. Be mindful. Both acts of push and pull can be toxic and harmful. Check in with yourself often. Write notes, record yourself talking to yourself (it helps, I swear) and listen to your body. Mine is creaking under the weight of my great aunt’s Christmas fudge 😂 Treat yourselves with respect and kindness. You deserve it 😘😘😘
