I'm going to talk about something a little more complicated...

I'm going to talk about something a little more complicated. Thank you all for your hard work and schoolwork today. A few years ago, I was introduced to a part-time job because I felt somewhat anxious about my life. However, since I had experienced domestic violence for the first time in my life, I had been anxious and emotionally unstable about everything, so now that I think about it, that may have been the reason for my anxiety. In a single day, I deal with many people from morning to night, and it's too much trouble to explain my mental state to each one of them, so I unconsciously started to spend my time with empty energy. And then the day finally came. "The day finally came when I couldn't get up because my body couldn't move even though I was thinking, "I have to hurry. Once it happens, it happens all the time, doesn't it? After a while, an employee at the store where I was working part-time got angry with me. He told me, "You are not in a condition to work right now, so you need to go to the hospital right now. Go to the hospital now and get better, then go back for another interview if necessary. I was surprised by the content of the letter, but since I didn't think there was anything wrong with me, I was more sad than grateful, thinking, "I've been fired... 🥲". (Now I understand what it means, and I'm grateful that he was a good boss.) I looked for a psychosomatic doctor for the first time in my life to go to the hospital as I was told, but the first appointment was several months away. I was in over my head. After much searching, I finally found a relatively new psychosomatic medicine in my neighborhood. As a result, I was diagnosed as depressed. After the diagnosis, I was told to come to the hospital every week, but I was surprised at the unbelievable amount of money I had to pay for the hospital visits, and I thought, "If my depression progresses in my spare time, why don't I just stay busy? So I quit visiting the hospital. 🙃. (If you report to the government that you go to a psychosomatic medicine clinic, the amount you have to pay is reduced, but the hospital fees are still high.) I don't want to say or think that I can't do anything because I'm depressed, so I try not to do anything I don't want to do. I heard that the number of depressed people has been increasing since last year. It's not uncommon, so if you're feeling down and can't see a solution to your problems, it's not like you're being naive or slacking off, so please make an appointment with a psychotherapist, even though it may be hard...! 🙈. ...I make it look like I'm talking to you guys, but I'm also telling myself that. 🤒☠️