Ek, a blog style post. This is new, let me know what you thi..

Ek, a blog style post. This is new, let me know what you think.  A few people have asked me why I changed cam sites and my responses have always been brief because time has been limited and I've never known the best way to explain it.  During the last few months of 2019 things were, tries to think of the right word, interesting. Hm, that doesn't feel like the right word. I was starting to struggle with camming on my existing platform, everything was still working and running well but internally I was beginning to get antsy with it. I could feel myself getting irritated and logging off unhappy. Obviously there were shows in there which I thoroughly enjoyed during those last few months but generally I was struggling.  The style of camming on my last site tended to lean more towards hardcore and very much doing what the viewer wanted at that specific moment. I have always maintained I am a happy person and that very little gets me down or pushes me but this felt different and I couldn’t ignore it. OnlyFans was the only place where I felt some level of peace, I could do and share what I wanted when I wanted it. There was no level of expectation placed on me, I could truly be who I wanted to be and do the things I wanted. I had a lot of fun with many and of course I only ever performed things that I have, and still do, enjoy but so many things are a mood thing, which I was learning to appreciate and understand. My insecurities stopped me from ever feeling like I could say no and be myself but, thankfully, as we get older we relax and begin to be more comfortable in who we are. Again with some people those insecurities weren't there, with some I was instinctively me and enjoyed my encounters with them, several are still involved in my world now others have gone. Remaining loyal to the original site and that is ok, people move on. Building new friendships and new connections with people has been fun! I began to think that I was done with camming, that I needed to leave everything behind and find something fresh but I couldn’t think of anything else I wanted to do, I never have had this feeling of ‘I want to be x’ So, I started to explore and look into alternatives. I was aware of CB and many had asked me if I was ever going to stream on there. Honestly when I looked at it before it really did not appeal to me but it could be the change I needed. I knew that @English_RosieUK cammed on CB and we'd communicated a bit so I turned to her asking for her thoughts and advice on using the platform. She was amazing and encouraging, giving me the help and confidence that I could make it work.  I had no idea which direction I was going to take it in, how to set myself up. What I should be offering or what people were going to expect. The first live stream was nerve wracking but exciting at the same time. I figured I'd wing it, as they say, and see where it took me. On the old site you had to be a registered user and no nudity was offered for free. The general user count in freeview was only ever 10 (ish) people at time so I knew I was moving to a place where the potential viewer count was considerably higher, this added to the arousal but also added to the nerves. It has been quite the learning curve for me, mistakes have been made and learnt from. Now I feel I have the hang of it and have created something that is special and somewhere that's fun to hang out. There will still be a lot of changes and mistakes along the way but I am excited for this adventure and to see where it leads me. Less than a year in and it's been a lot of fun!