Hi again :) So, I’ve decided that, from now on, I’m going to..

Hi again :) So, I’ve decided that, from now on, I’m going to start posting 3-4x/week. Sometimes I’ll post more than this, but I can’t handle this constant pressure I feel to take new pictures. When I started out, I really didn’t know what my goal was with this and was willing to do whatever it took to gain new subscribers. I didn’t question if I was comfortable because I knew OF is competitive and I didn’t think I could sell myself without giving a little. Well, the longer I’ve been doing this, the more I realize how important my own comfort is. Yes, the money matters to me. I’m saving for my apartment/ living on my own and I put 40+ hours/week into taking pics, chatting, etc. (Ik… sounds ridiculous, I fucking wish I was joking). But my comfort is far more important than the money. I also feel confident that there are people who will support me for me. And if not, this **definitely** isn’t for me :) I don’t want to stop doing this, I simply need to find a balance between my job (nannying), this, and having a personal life/down time. I can’t spend every waking hour at this. It’s not good for my mental health and it’s just not the life I want to live. I love posting here, seriously I do. But I don’t want subscribers who aren’t understanding of what this is for me. It’s a way to make some extra side money and to express myself and my sexuality. I love sharing my kinky secrets and deeper emotions with you. It’s really neat to have my own little platform, as I only have a couple friends right now and don’t use social media. It’s nice to feel heard. I also love chatting with new people and making friends (it’s crazy, but I genuinely do consider some of you friends). I haven’t been in the best place (& I’m honestly pretty sure I started this whole nudes thing when I was manic, because it’s realllllly not in my nature), so it’s also been really beneficial to me to have people to talk to. But **again**… at the end of the day, this is for ME. I’m not a porn star. This isn’t my full time job. It’s my fun, my escape, and yeah like I said… the money makes a difference. This is the reason I’m going to be able to afford an apartment to myself. It’s the reason I can decorate how I want and have something to look forward to. I don’t know if girls usually talk about the money side of this, but it’s the truth. No one is posting these vulnerable pictures for absolutely no reason at all!! Okay… maybe **some** people, but very few. I’m constantly thinking my bosses or someone I know might find me. I’ve also taken on a role that is judged by much of society. It’s not even my sole income, but knowing that I do this would solidify a lot of people’s opinions on me. OH and not to mention I’m also keeping this from half my family which kills me because I’m just as open about everything with them as I am with you. But they’d (quite literally) disown me if they knew I was doing this. The money is the part that makes all this stress worth it for me. Hopefully it’s obvious by now that I’m honest and just say it how it is. Sorry this feels more like a rant than anything, but im very thankful for every single one of you that has chosen to subscribe to and support me <3 Anyways, this is a lot of words for “this has been too much and I’m ready to tone it down”. I just feel bad because I started by advertising that I’d be posting daily and don’t wanna disappoint anyone, but again… I need to do what’s best for me. I want to be proud of the pictures I put out, which lately, I have not been. I know a lot of girls post daily or multiple times daily, so absolutely no hard feelings if this is the reason you don’t want to subscribe anymore :) Okayyyy… well… I hope you have a lovely day or night. I’m here drinking alone again haha so 🍻! I feel a bit of relief now that I’ve typed all of this out. Sorry it’s disorganized and might not make the most sense. But, what’s new…. I actually tried to proofread this and make it all flow together, but shit it’s too long and too all over the place hahaha