LONGGGG “ESSAY” (subject: collabs)- I still can’t believeee..

LONGGGG “ESSAY” (subject: collabs)- I still can’t believeee I’m actually doing collabs on here now :o I know it’s normal for many OF creators, but if you’ve been here awhile (or read through my older posts), you know how big it is for me :) That said, I didn’t know what I wanted to get out of collabs when I decided to try ‘em out, but after doing a few, I have a much better idea… The biggest thing for me is honestly just making friends and getting to know other girls in this industry. OF can be super isolating and working with others has made it wayyy more fun :) I also love traveling & exploring new places, so that part’s pretty awesome too. As for the actual OF side of collabs, my feelings are a bit more complex. I love making ig/tiktok content & taking nudes… they’re fun and make my page a little more exciting, imo. So that’s my main focus when I get together with other creators. Videos, however, are not so easy for me :/ I know this isn’t what anyone wants to hear, but I’m just being honest, as I’ve always been! So here are some boundaries I’ve set for myself & what you can expect: 1. I’ll only collab with girls I get along with and consider friends. If I do decide to m**t someone, we talk on the phone multiple times and get to know each other beforehand. Then we hang out before I actually agree to film/post anything together. Meaning, I’ll never post someone on my page just because I know you’ll like it :) 2. I *won’t* be having sex with girls. I did film a fingering video with Lilah, and it was completely my choice (she confirmed multiple times that I was comfortable and sure with my decision), but I don’t see myself doing it again, at least not before I’ve experienced these things in a relationship. I did *want* to do it to see how it felt and if I enjoyed it more than I expected, but quite frankly, it wasn’t my thing. Not talking about fingering all together, but I just don’t think I could ever be a hook up person in general 😔 But that’s kinda the point of my page… to experiment with new things and see how I feel. Not just say I love everything and go further and further just because I can. For this reason, I haven’t decided whether or not I’ll be sharing what we filmed. I know it would be my best selling ppv… probably forever, but I also don’t want people to expect more and more. I’ve literally done 6 solo ppv videos EVER and 2 are just pussy close ups. I still have so many things to try and get comfortable with on my own and don’t want my page to become all about what’s coming next with others. If I do choose to share it, I hope you’ll still love it though. It *was* hot and definitely still part of my “journey”, just not the part that immediately leads to more and more hardcore content, and hopefully you can still enjoy what’s to come without feeling like I’m going backwards. Does this make sense? 🥲 3. I’ll still film videos when I do collabs (maybe not always), but nothing else that I haven’t had the chance to experience on my own. I love making out, and having fun with more creative ideas (like I loved the bj tutorial & got some solid knowledge from that), so those are definitely the kinds of things you can expect for now :) In conclusion… my boundaries can and do change, but they won’t JUST because I feel like they haven’t in too long and I therefore **need** to do something I’m not comfortable with. Just as it’s always been with my page, collabs are a “you get what you get and you don’t throw a fit” thing. I know this is redundant, but whatcha gonna do!! Anyways, congratulations if you actually made it through my entire essay!! I’d give you a sticker if I could 🥰 Or a blowjob… if I was comfortable w you, cuz u know… all that boundary stuff I just wrote about 😜 lmao