I was -> <- this close to keeping the session to myself, bec..

I was -> <- this close to keeping the session to myself, because I certainly shouldn't be spending that much time on the editing now, but you know what? I love how it turned out 🤭And the session itself was a much-needed distraction and I really wanted to share it, because I am pretty sure you are going to love it as I did 🥰

I was wondering if mixing pleasure with frustration is more difficult if there is more pleasure, or the other way around. I mean, last time, the stocking made it pretty unbearable and I loved it. But after we were done, it got me thinking. What if I was doing something absolutely irresistible, very much pleasurable, but in a way that would frustrate him out of his mind? It might not be as difficult physically, but there is something hot about knowing I'll be planting images and ideas inside his head that will stay there for months. So I figured, what if I put him on a towel, so there is no way he would get hard and give him a little blowjob — something he didn't have for years now. 😈 If I don't count the occasional kiss, though even that is rare. I really mean putting his dick deep inside my mouth and swirling it with my tongue, like I was giving it a French kiss. 🤭 With the tiny detail, he won't be getting hard and he certainly won't be cumming.

It's funny, how anything to do with sexuality is so deeply ingrained in us, that even if he knows the reason behind it, he can't get past that. I guess it's like that with many emotions, really. It doesn't stop you from experiencing it even if you know why. By letting him sit on a towel I am making it impossible for him to get hard. He's just flopping around like a soft noodle. I can jerk him off and he can feel it. His brain is screaming to just get hard, to get ready for mating. Or to at least show me he can do it, so he gets a chance with me. 🤭 Even if he knows that it can't be done. He's feeling everything I am doing yet his dick is completely impotent of making even a single twitch 😈

The funny thing is, that this is the only way I can fit him in my mouth fully. Luke claims it actually feels completely divine. Though given that his dick is 99% of the time cramped in a steel cage I assume his assessment might be a little skewed because a wet towel would feel like heaven to him🤭 But I tried to make it feel really nice. At least when I was done laughing 😄. I wanted his frustration to come from a different place this time. To make it feel fantastic and sexy, with the little imperfection that he's soft and impotent. And I don't know what would be worse. If he actually couldn't get it up, or I've decided that he deserves it 😈 That I rather do all these things to keep him caged and soft and denied and pussy-free, rather than just have sex with him. Knowing that making fun of his dick and not fucking him is much more sexier and thrilling than anything he could do with it otherwise. And even better is, that I know that this is exactly what makes him drip. 🤭

I am not sure what is it about twisting his dick purpose and doing everything I can to use it any other way than it's meant to, but it's fucking hot. I think it has to do with something primal. If I can rule over a guy's dick and reject him sexually, while he's still drooling over me, it has to mean I am on top. I think it's the same with anal plays. Can't wait to have more time for those. It's a whole other area where I hope to melt his mind into a pudding 🤭 Anyway, to my original idea of pleasure and frustration ratio ... I think I like both, just for different reasons. The pantyhose was incredibly fun, as he was squirming so hard, that he almost couldn't contain himself. But making him feel like a sexual reject while giving him a sensual blowjob at the same time is just messing with his head on another level 😈 When he was playing with my boobs I felt I could almost taste the frustration in the air. I think at one point he was close to screaming and not because it didn't feel good. All in all, I guess I am just as hooked on those intense experiences as he is. 🤭 Nothing felt like this before and I really can't imagine going back.