Depressing rant but I need to For anyone that's been followi..
Added 2025-01-16 06:44:53 +0000 UTCDepressing rant but I need to
For anyone that's been following me for a long time, this is all going to sound super familiar and I get that, but unfortunately it's come around again. I seriously do not think I will ever have a physical relationship ever again for the rest of my life. I have tried so hard this year to reach out more and be confident and be the one to initiate conversations and interactions, and yet all it has done is kill my self esteem even more. There is no point in trying when I look the way I do and am such as an insane looser in life. Even if I made it to the talking stage, no one would ever look at me like a serious candidate. Ever. This year I even branched out a bit and have started talking to some trans in the community just to broaden my horizons, and all I've learned is that I am just flat out not wanted by anyone. And no offense to the gay men who interact and follow me, but you all just make it worse. I love hearing the kind words, but when they come from someone I'm not interested in and from those who only find me sexually attractive, it's all for nothing. I just can't take it anymore. All of it. Life is too fucked up and stressful to have dreams and aspirations so what's the point of getting my hopes up just to get shut down over and over again
