Happy hump day lovelies! I won't be on here much today, but ..
Added 2023-04-19 16:34:30 +0000 UTCHappy hump day lovelies! I won't be on here much today, but I'll be back tomorrow! I hope everyone is enjoying their week! I'm excited for my plans today, but bummed out because people are just so damn disappointing. I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I just can't understand the way other people can so easily be so unapologetically dishonest, disloyal, and disingenuous. I don't understand the way people justify certain things to themselves or how they don't feel icky at how they treat and talk about others. Maybe I hold people to the standard of behavior I know I would or wouldn't commit, and maybe that's the problem. My horrible trait is lashing out and saying the hurt that I'm feeling so deeply in the moment. And I hate myself for it often times. But otherwise I'm a completely 100% loyal, truthful, genuine person. I'm there to lift my friends and loved ones up, make them feel less judged and seen..I'm never going to pretend to like someone I don't or be nice to someone who says and does horrible things. I'm never going to shit talk my friends behind their backs, I'm never going to pretend to be someone's friend and then tell everyone else how awful they are. I take loyalty so seriously and I don't understand people who straddle the fence as to not bet on the wrong horse or lose favor. All of those things to me are what help make me a good person, and again, maybe me holding others to that standard is unfair or unwise. I just I feel so defeated and so genuinely puzzled at how I will think I understand someone and I trust that they mean what they say, and then they end up being the opposite of how they present themselves and it makes me feel like I'm the most gullible, naive human ever. I don't know... I'm just rambling and using you guys as my diary to try to understand. I need to get my butt in gear now and get ready 😠love you guys sorry for the diary entry today :p back to sexy stuff tomorrow
