I have this thing called PMDD. You know what PMS is I assume..

I have this thing called PMDD. You know what PMS is I assume, and this is a special version of that. Basically, I get extremely depressed with no motivation and severe mood swings leading up to my "monthly woes" (lol - banned words). So it amounts to a couple days every month where I don't want to exist and shut down. The best thing during this time is to just be close with my partner. Physically close. He holds me and the warmth of his body is like a security blanket. Running my fingers through his hair has this calming effect on me, much like fidget toys do for some people. The tactile feeling of his hair moving between my fingers, the intimacy of it, the way he pushes his head into the palm of my hand, the sounds he makes when I massage his scalp and down his neck. Nothing makes me feel so loved and safe as being held tightly with the full intention of love filling the embrace. He'll look up at me with sad eyes. All he wants is to make me feel better. I'll be in pain. Cramps, back ache, chest sensitivity, even vulva soreness. And all I really want is to be reassured that I'm loved.. So he will pat the bed and ask me to lay with him. I'll reluctantly comply, curling up next to him and pressing my body against his for him to spoon me. I can't even describe how good it feels when he starts rubbing and massaging my back. I could spend days in that moment. Feeling his hands sliding up and down my back, massaging my sore muscles with his thumbs. My legs curled around his to feel as close as possible. Of course, closeness comes in many forms. Whether it's a prolonged embrace, or a slow kiss to the neck. Intimacy doesn't need to be sexual to feel intense and be full of pleasure. Often it'll end there. Perhaps we will sleep with our bodies entwined. And often I'll feel him growing hard under his boxers from the simple act of feeling over my body. So we find other ways to feel even closer. Delicately he'll consider what I'm not up for. He will get on top of me and take our clothes off, and again, hold me. He'll slide his hardness against me, between my thighs, against my clit. If I'm up for it, he'll go inside my ass. Have you ever made sweet intimate love anally? If you haven't, you're certainly missing out.. And for me, it soothes my cramps, funny enough.