*She lay there thinking, 'Now, what can I do next?'* I feel..
Added 2021-12-17 04:35:14 +0000 UTC*She lay there thinking, 'Now, what can I do next?'* I feel like this is something I should say towards the end of the month, or I probably have said this for Thanksgiving lolz... But sometimes I get so in my head and I spiral a little bit, think too negatively of everything and myself, that I lose sight of the things I have accomplished. And I've been talking about my projects and how I'm making progress in each one slowly but surely and that I don't want to share too much until they're complete. But I feel like that accountability is a double-edged sword (honestly, idk if I'm using the right word for this, so correct me if I'm wrong). Accountability can be a good thing if you share your goals with other people. Those other people can support you, keep you on track, etc. But it can also be bad if the goal you set doesn't get achieved. You not only feel like shit, but now everyone knows that you failed. There's a bit of comfort when you don't tell anyone what you're planning: If you succeed, you impress everyone; if you fail, no harm is done to anyone or yourself. You can choose to drop it or try again without anyone telling you anything. But all of this depends on the type of goal or the type of person, or any number of factors. I mean, there has to be a reason why resolutions tend to fail or why people don't even try to make them. It just depends. But looking back at this year, I know I've accomplished so much. No matter how shitty I feel right now, it could have been worse, and I survived. We survived, and still are. Whatever goals I have for next year don't matter too much. I'm still growing, I'm still learning, experiencing, etc. And I'm becoming more of who I'd like to be, and living more the way I intend to. And that's something I will continue to look forward to: just being more me~ Looking back, how did you fare this past year?
