It’s like I was fragmented at that point and I just didn’t f..
Added 2020-04-06 04:49:07 +0000 UTCIt’s like I was fragmented at that point and I just didn’t feel the love for living like I used to... I was just doing through life... allowing my pain and suppression of it to consume me. I forgot how exhilarating it felt to twirl, to move my hips and sweat to drums... I didn’t identify with myself... an empty shell that felt.. well.. empty. I never thought I would feel right in my body... or heart again. The trauma continued as I operated from a space of scarcity and survival and I only attracted users and abusers when I truly just wanted the love I had been giving all along... I always felt like I loved my partner more than they loved me... and I thought I could teach them how to love.(of course I did but I didn’t realize this until much later after the relationships ended) (continued in next post.) (part 2)
