We had a dinner party at our little apartment tonight with m..
Added 2022-08-10 23:51:10 +0000 UTCWe had a dinner party at our little apartment tonight with my roommates. It was nice. We went shopping together We cooked together and we made tacos together and we played cards together!! it was very fun I laughed a lot hahahaha But deep down I'm not happy. Because I feel like my life is stranded now. Like I want to move forward but I don't know how to. Waking up every morning I feel no purpose in life. I hate this feeling. I'm just all wasting time. I feel like maybe I don't believe that I'm special anymore. Maybe it's cuz I'm not skinny enough? Eating disorder is really fucking me up. And whenever i think of my family I feel extremely guilty... they pin their hopes on me. I can't let them down. But at the same time I'm stuck. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. This is when I feel like life is really making feel overwhelmed. I Hate this state of mind. when will I get out of this? What to do to get out of this? sigh
