oh hey oh hey π i am so fucking thankful for you guys, i needed to take time off and see what is going on with my brain not wanting to socialize anymore or where itβs stemming from and itβs honestly the stress i put on myself and anxiety i have now of knowing people are watching me, cause itβs been so long iβve been in front of the lens and oh man people have been following me since the beginning on here, youβve seen the crazy ups and downs of a roller coaster i displayed to the world and even just making art live is hard to think about doing but i am going to try today if i can remember the mic set up π thank you guys for all the early bday wishes and if i didnβt msg you back pls just send me another! onlyfans loves to mix up my read and unread and it drives me nuts haha donβt think iβm purposely ignoring you!!!! i just needed to think inward for a bit cause the break i said i was gonna take never happened lolol idk how to take one cause iβve been on call 24/7 since i was 18 π¬ i am so appreciative of everyone still here, im gonna be making a HUGE tip list to pin to the top of my profile bc i have so much goddamn content itβs ridiculous hahahah everyone who donates $10+ on my birthday goal will get a folder of cool stuff π₯°π₯° imma try to twitch now or soon hahaha or just film myself making this commission itβs a fiery triptych β€οΈβπ₯β€οΈβπ₯β€οΈβπ₯β€οΈβπ₯β€οΈβπ₯ how has everyone beeeeeen??? iβve come to the conclusion that i HAVE to force myself live again to interact and get out of this head space, imma be cutting back on kratom bc it gives me mood swings and anxiety too, i just want to feel like myself so so so badly i hope this new me is not MYSELF and just a phase im gojng thru but itβs been since sobriety haha ugh but NOT DRINKINGGG STILLLL πͺ hugs to all that defeated their addictions or are working on it ππ€