A little life update, something I usually wouldn't like shar..

A little life update, something I usually wouldn't like sharing, but I hope it can explain my absence a bit and it's something I need to get off my mind, I know some might not find this "sexy" to read, but life throws shit at anyone and I feel safe to share it here.

I have a lots of post scheduled in to be posted automatically.

Sorry for my absence regarding posting/replying to messages. I'm currently living on the fear of getting evicted from my house, with literally nowhere to go. This is a lot of stress and makes me spiral down in a bad mental state where I find it very hard to get work done, so instead I dive in a different world with gaming, which is not helpful, but it helps for those hours I spend somewhere else with my mind. Still not a good spiral to be in. And I'm doing my best to be more active here again.

How did I get in this situation? Just like for everyone else the cost of living is rising a lot, my monthly bills are doubled, some groceries even tripled in price and on top of that due to massive changes with onlyfans (not accepting payments unless it's credit card or visa debit), my income has drastically dropped. I'm not a few months behind on rent and my landlord is incredibly pissed which might lead to a eviction. It's just a lot of stress, I am working as much as I can mentally handle at the moment. adding a "real" job on top wouldn't cut it as I would need to cut other things out, either OF or Twitch and both of those platforms still make me more then a fulltime job would.

Due to being in the minus I'm not getting accepted to any cheaper housing places, which means I'm currently stuck in a house that's way too expensive with bills and groceries that keep rising. It's a vicious cycle and I am with my back against a wall whilst still trying to figure out how I get can get out of this situation.

I hope this clears some stuff up a bit, I am aware I'm not the only one going through this, it's a struggle for a lot of people, at the end of the day I'm still human and have my own emotions and feelings and it's just been really fucking tough.

I love you lots and appreciate the continues support.